Devil's fire

Sometimes I don't understand the reasons for the way I feel. It just happens. Like today, I feel down, and I can't explain why. Brenton has been trying his best to raise my spirits and make me happy, but nothing seems to be working. What is wrong with me? Is there something inside me that just prevents me from feeling happiness? Is there something inside that causes all this pain? Sitting here.. I look around at my College English class and wonder "how many of these seniors are like me?" How many of them feel the heat of the devils fire? Can they see inside of my soul, know what I know? Is there something, someone out there that can stop this numb from spreading deep inside? I want to feel love, hate, happiness, and desire.